The seductive allures of being miserable

Human beings can be an amazing study. They are like moths, they know that they will burn and even the ones with the singed wings fly back again to the same thing. Especially when it comes to relationships. No matter how much they profess they have learnt from past mistakes they go back to the same trap. What is so seductive about the mistakes that they have to be committed again and again and again. Or rather what is so seductive about being miserable? Constantly being in a dilemma of whether it is there or not, and even more surprising is the fact that when you have achieved it you grow discontented with it again! and look for more things to try and achieve, fail and then feel miserable again. The euphoria of miserablity is inexplicable and yet unavoidable. Somehow things that dont make you chase are too gettable and dont have that spirit of adventure in them and thus are not attractive enough. Is it all about an ego game? - as long as you cant achieve it, your ego is unsatisfied and you keep on trying harder, but the moment you achieve it - your ego is satisfied, things fall into a sad state of ennui. There is this bengali saying - "Nera dubar beltolai jaina" - meaning that a man who has been affected once will not commit the same mistake twice, but with what I see it should be - " Nera barbar beltolai jabe" - god! seem to have talked about the same thing over and over again, i need to get out of this god damn place soon enough or else i will turn into one of them too!