strange emotional eununch

my friend, mentor guide

i did the unthinkable,

now,

i find u unchanged

but so much has changed for me

i live in this vacuous bubble and look at the world

as one not living in it

i observe, i judge, i laugh,

and yet i cry because i was not observant enough to

see my guide become my life

now i am left with strange choices

to laugh at the world outside for their strange mistakes

or to cry at my own stranger change

that leaves me in limbo

a strange emotional eununch.