Birthday Blues

Everytime its been my birthday since i think my 15th i have cried on my birthday ........ without fail this is what has occurred again and again and again. Each time someone very near to me has made this happen has somehow spoilt it for me. This year was also the same , my eyes are filled with tears and they are just waiting to roll down my cheeks - but i realised something this time its not the fault of others but of myself - i think i build up too much expectation about this one day and when it fails to live up to its expectation i get disappointed. Grow up Bips!!! Addedto it this time was the fact tht this is the third b'day i am spending away from home and i miss just having my parents around me on tht day, I wish I could spend my bday with only the select few I want in it - instead of making it a social event but as one of my friends said today - as you sow so you shall reap....................... anyway happy b day bips cheer up!